So the first appointment with the Doctor was short and sweet. I have to admit that I was a little surprised about it. The Doctor was a a young girl and she asked F a few questions about her medical history and told us she would write to the local hospital to book us in for the first appointment with the team their, but that was it. There were no tests or anything, all in all it took about ten minutes - we were in and out!!!

Its getting quite scary, and seems to be happening very quickly. mum and dad are very excited and are telling a few relatives. I was chatting to my brother about it for ages and my Aunt visited on Sunday. Everyone is very excited, but I still have quite mixed feelings.

It's hard not knowing how I feel, sometimes I'm excited, and sometimes I'm terrified.
I think F is finding it very hard, she feels very alone here. She's only lived in Belfast a few months and hasn’t made very many friends. She feels very isolated and separated from her family (they're very excited too!!!), who are all back in Berlin. Its hard for me to see her upset and not be able to do very much about it apart from give her lots of hugs and love!!! It's hard to know when to hug and when to back off and give her space (even though i don't want to!!). I guess I'll keep taking my queues form her and make sure she knows that I'm here for her and love her. I think the whole situation has made me realise just how much i do actually love her and cherish her.

We can't wait to start buying baby things!!! I've been looking online for all the things we're going to need and making lists of stuff, from a pram to baby bags and monitors!!! It's all so exciting, but quite expensive!!! It's going to cost us a fortune so I hope all of our friends are ready for the baby list and get shopping - lol!!! I can't wait to start stock piling all this stuff, but its still far too early!!! But we need to get ssssooo much stuff!!! Not only that but we've decided to break our lease and move in May a couple of months before due date, to give us a chance to settle in and get our new place set up!! We need to break the news to our lovely land lord though, which could go either way, he's a nice guy so hopefully he'll understand!!!